This poorly made picture made it look like I was in a jedi dream sequence. 

This is one of our pathetic attempts to promote some of our favorite products using our own marketing skills. Notice the almost fake smile I have... 

Chuvaness Conundrums

I spoke with the shark on the account of our chuvaness. It has been a while since the shark had start to stalk its prey and I started investigating on the anomaly. Since then, we have been inspired in ways we could not even start to explain. It is clear that the chuvaness has become more than a prey to the shark and has become more than an anomaly to me. We are left in a precarious position of moving forward in the direction where we can't go back or to remain amidst the crowd and continue on with the mission that we both started out on.

The competition seemed unabated and are constantly pursuing chuvaness at a disturbing pace. As much as we would like to take up the challenge, we are confronted with deeper issues that we were not able to resolve during the length of our mission. The fear of rejection has always been a hurdle on my part and the response of chuvaness to this advance might be treated as a consequential event brought about by her magnetism. I must admit that her smile never ceases to make my day. The number of suitors she had rejected in this manner might be the requiem for my unwanted attraction to her. A fitting end, I suppose. Tragic nonetheless.

A "husky" plan comes to mind, as suggested by the shark. Humorous, to say the least. Highly inappropriate when applied within the bounds of reality and the norms of human society. "I crush you" is hardly a good way of expressing one's affections. I must contemplate more on how to convey this matter in a more dignified and fitting expression. Something better than "I crush you." No pun intended.

Incohesive Thoughts and Memories

I just had a weird dream last night and could not piece it together. One minute I was with a beautiful young lady on my way to a distant place to unwind and the next minute, I was watching Gary V. perform live inside a church because he thought the music was a little too mellow for him. Like I said, weird. The thing is, I didn't know the young lady I was with but she had a familiar feeling like I've met her somewhere before.

Dreams are not made purely out of fantasy but rather they are made from the inner bowels of our unconscious mind. The people and things are not really non-existent but rather incohesive thoughts and memories from the past or present. This I learned from master Yoda himself. The troubling part is not when Gary V. started to dance but, the reason why I was in a Roman Catholic church with a familiar someone. I knew the place was cold, (must've been Bagiuo 'coz I've been dying to go there this past few months), and that the person I was with was someone I knew very well and was deeply in love with. Though dreams are never really taken seriously by science or otherwise, they are regarded as an omen or sign in the old days. The gift of foresight (common among jedi), is believed to be channeled by dreams when people go to sleep.

For now, I will meditate on this. Thoughts and memories are still a tool to be wielded properly and if properly allocated, will help you reach your proper end.

Diverse Paths

I had just been with my colleagues over dinner to wish one of our cherished friends luck on her journey to a foreign country to pursue her career as a pharmacist. It brings me joy to see one of my friends start out to find their dreams and live them and it pains me as well for I may never see her again.

It has been nearly four years since we graduated and went out on our separate ways to live our dreams. It's amazing how God brings different people together, break them up but still keep them connected in a totally different manner. In our journey through life, we travel along a common road and take paths along with the people we meet and at one point we would have to take a different road that may or may not lead to the same place we're trying to get to.

It's nice to know I have found a handful of people who are willing to walk the same path as me. I may lose some of them at one point but I know that I met these people to get me not to where I want to go, but where I should be.

Bleeding Existence

Over the week I was unable to work as my kidney problems set in and it has proven almost impossible to concentrate because of the pain. I set out to heal myself and ask God for the guidance I need to overcome the emotional and psychological repercussions of this event. As most guys don't think about a certain event in their life with much depth, I on the other hand, had made it a habit to always see things in different perspectives and points of view. A jedi trait lost to the general public.

As I am emotionally driven, my feelings are at the core of what I do. If I'm down, so is everything else. The recent illness I had dealt more damage to my mood than it did to my physiology. During the ordeal, I couldn't help but think that I was almost in my death bed with my blood pressure almost reaching an unstable level and there was no one around me and that no one even tried to contact me to even check if I were alive at the time. I almost died alone. Oh tragedy of tragedies. Can't say it never happened before though.

It is times like these when a bachelor such as myself feel the impact of being alone. Can't help but compare my life to some of my friends. Their special someone would not leave their side even if its just the flu. Corny, and yet it is something I've been missing all along.

Regrets set in as I lay down on my bed. I've always believed that love is not love until you give it away to someone. I almost died without having to tell her how I feel. And yet as tomorrow comes and I see her again, I would not have the courage to. The thought of her having to say "Scram!!" at my face is just too unbearable. Her thoughts betray her as I feel she already knows. She acts otherwise and refer to me as a third party with no name. Cute. Who knows, maybe I'm just paranoid. And so I must continue on to this road that the good Lord has set upon me. To continue a bleeding existence that will someday claim my life. Or not.

The Dark Side

I've reviewed my blogg page and it would seem that it has been filled with my angst and my disappointments along with some of the anger that has been building up inside me. My apologies. I do have a lighter side if you know me in person. The dark side of me is not exactly a pretty picture to behold. I'll try to include some of my usual humor and crazy antics as often as I can. Thanks.

Another Season of Loneliness

'Tis another Yuletide season fast approaching. I can almost smell the streetchildren coming to let out a song in exchange for cash. A gesture I never learned to appreciate. Forgive me if I sound like Ebenezer Scrooge so early in September, but I couldn't help but notice the nights are getting colder and longer. I'm getting older in the next month, people don't seem to notice as usual. Suits me just fine, I cant stand people greeting you to blandly ask for a free meal, I have none to spare, nor would I want to use my precious resources to feed some people who hardly knows me.

The past few years, I had less celebrations on the day I was born. Mostly 'coz I don't really care. I don't like the attention. Why should people treat you differently only because you were born on that day? If they really care, they would've treated you the same way all throughout the year! I dislike the fact that I'm reminded that I just got older with another year of being alone.

Last year, I thought it would all change. Didn't count on the fact that things don't really go the way you planned it. Must've been an oversight if not wishful thinking. The anomaly continue to haunt my dreams, she seems beautiful each day. Must be just me. As always, even if you can see the future, you cannot see past the next minute. Life is really unpredictable.

Contributor to the Cause

Hey guys, I'll be a contributor to Lynx's blogg page www.freshink.blogspot.com in the hopes that the women will understand us guys better by hearing our side of the story for once. Thanks for always reading.